im feelin...unwanted
I have been really, not myself i guess lately. I used to enjoy people just randomly asking how i am, or just saying hi in fact i still do. It has been a while since this has happenned, in fact i have not had a good discussion with anyone for a while. whether people just dont care, or just feel i dont want to talk to them im not sure. maybe i am over reacting, but it hurts to feel unwanted, even to me. The only person that really wondered...that really cared...is half way around the world. He lives in Switzerland, and his name is Thomas. He has no reason to like me, i called him an idiot behind his back, and i am still ashamed of this. Maybe I am so undeserving of friends, he noticed and reached a helping hand to me. I am not sure, and I am sorry if i shouted at anyone and i understand now why. I am not really a friend to anyone, and the only people that really see me as one, live half way around the world or are ordered to protect me.
posted by mask of anarchy @ 11:21 AM
